What do we do?

Basicly we clean. Hotel rooms. We clean until our skin breaks. Into little cracks. Bleeding. We share bed and Bepanthen (cream that heals wounds), just to name a few. We laugh. Few times a day until we cry. It is kind of a therapy: cleaning and laughing. Our kind of yoga and meditation at the moment.

How do we feel?

Most of the time we feel great. Great together. We, two Slovenians working with a Bosnian super woman A. The Balkan energy hits anyone who passes us and the rest of staff call us brigade.

At the same time we are only humans and lack of free days is taking it’s costs. We noticed the pattern and classified stages of our exhaustion (mental and physical) during working freaking hard. The stages are listed randomly.  It happens we are in more than one stage at the time.  

Burned out: high level of exhaustion. It is not coincidence we are wringing out cleaning cloths each day. Somehow we identify with those white pieces of old linen. They are getting worn out doing a pretty hard job and are not appreciated as much as they should be (regarding them being an essential part of  our cleaning equipment). At this stage we often get random laughing outbursts which are being provoked by tragic memories floating back to us. It also happens, that we start laughing hysterically for no reason at all.

Rolling the eyes and not being aware of it. It happens spontaneously as sort of an emotional response to given situation. It is done in the heat of the moment in front of people to whom, regarding social rules, you shall not roll.

Numb hands! Maja: “Is that normal?” Polona: “Yes, all friends doing seasonal work had reported about it already.” It is just logical consequence of doing same movements all over again. They say it will pass.

Vertigo as you would be extremely dizzy from alcohol, even though it’s been a long long time since you have tasted it. This stage includes almost falling walking on a hallway. Feeling like stepping into depth. Tripping yourself.

Body of a squid: when you have absolutely no power to move your limbs and you still do it for the sake of money flying to your bank account reassuring financial freedom. Knowing this is only temporary and that soon you will treat your body with some self-indulgence having nice massages on the top of the list.

Flamingo: is the very last stage. Rare exotic bird. On the daily menu of our vocabulary. Fried flamingo. Fried flamingo stuffed with ara which is filled with parakeet, which is filled with baby parakeet. It happens when tired mind gets mad. Note: We both love animals and this is just delusion of a tired mind, not to mention sniffing vapours of cleaning fluids atop of that.

When we feel totally down, we run to the third floor. There we have a jaw dropping view of magnificent mountains and suddenly our problems seem small and unimportant.

Today we have been there three times.

Polo and Maja

Sveti Bepanthen: sobaričenje v vsej svoji veličini

Kaj počneva?

Na kratko: čistiva. Hotelske sobe. Hodnike. Savno. Čistiva, dokler se koža najinih rok ne izsuši in razpoka. Deliva si posteljo (na ne-erotični način) in Bepanthen, krema za celjenje ran (med drugim). Smejeva se, vsak dan in to do solz. Morda so krivi hlapi iz čistil, morda je to telesna reakcija fizične utrujenosti, ampak vse to jemljeva kot terapijo. Čiščenje in smejanje. Najina joga in meditacija v tem obdobju.

Kako se počutiva?

Večino časa se počutiva zelo dobro. Ker smo ekipa. Midve, Slovenki, v kombinaciji z Bosansko super žensko, ki jo bomo poimenovali “A”. Balkanska energija, ki jo jo skupaj proizvajamo, vpliva na vse, ki nam prekrižajo pot. Preostali zaposleni nas kličejo brigada.

Salvam smeha navkljub pa sva tudi midve samo človeka in pomanjkanje prostih dni terja svoj davek. Tako sva opazili in definirali stopnje utrujenosti glede na telesne in čustvene zmogljivosti (oz. nezmogljivosti) med (presneto težkim) delom. Navedene so naključno, lahko pa doživljava tudi več stopenj hkrati.

Izžetost: zelo huda utrujenost. Verjetno ni naključje, da vsakodnevno ožemava krpe. Na nek način se z njimi lahko poistovetiva; bledijo, vedno bolj so obrabljene in ne cenijo se zelo, čeprav bi brez njih bili izgubljeni.Na stopnji izžetosti velikokrat pride do histeričnih napadov smeha, ki jih izzvovejo spomini na tragične dogodke ali pa popolnoma nič.

Očitno zavijanje z očmi, ki se ga ne zavedaš. Pride spontano, kot čustveni odziv na bedno situacijo. Deluje v afektu, namenjen pa je tistim, pri katerih ga po vseh družbenih pravilih nikakor ne bi smel izvesti.

Odrevenele, mravljinčaste roke: Maja: “Je to normalno?” Polona: “Ja, vsi prijatelji sezonski delavci so že poročali o tem pojavu.” To je samo posledica rednega izvajanja enih in istih prisilnih gibov. Baje, da mine.

Vrtenje v glavi kot da si zelo pijana, čeprav sploh ne veš, kdaj si nazadnje pila alkohol. Da skoraj padeš po ravnem hodniku, ker si imela občutek, da boš stopila v globino in tako sama sebe spotakneš.

Telo lignja nastopi, ko imaš občutek, da nimaš kosti, moč v rokah je izginila neznano kam, ampak ti ignoriraš vse zgoraj našteto in nadaljuješ s svojim delom, ker se zavedaš, da ti bo plačilo prineslo finančno neodvisnost in ker veš, da si tukaj vsega skupaj za nekaj mesecev in da boš si kasneje lahko razvajala z masažami in boš telo lignja spravila nazaj kamor spada.

Flamingo: redka eksotična ptica, ki se vsakodnevno znajde na najinem besediščnem meniju. Pohan flamingo! Pohan flamingo, polnjen z aro, polnjena s skobčevko, polnjena z mladičko skobčevko. Naj omeniva, da imava obe izredno radi živali. Kot ljubezen do narave, ne kot vir prehrane. No, takšni prebliski se zgodijo, če se utrujenemu umu malce sfrclja. Ne pomaga pa tudi (nenamerno) vdihavanje hlapov čistil.

Ko smo zares na koncu z močmi, nam pomaga pobeg v tretje nadstropje. Tam se pred nami razprostre dih jemajoč razgled na mogočno skalnato gorovje. In naenkrat so naši problemi mali in nepomembni.

Danes smo tam bile trikrat.

Maja in Polo

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